Saturday, February 25, 2012

Healing...

I'm quite certain she does not read my blog, but thank you Cherie...



Sunday, February 12, 2012

Long Way Home...

Another song that fits me...and I love.  It's about the journey we take here on earth.  We really are just passing through.  The final destination is one to be sought after.  Yes, the journey here is often full of hills and valleys.  But there are several flat spots to camp out and have s'mores.  Just keep on keepin' on......

That's all you can do here, really.




Saturday, February 11, 2012

Just Laugh Already...

Amidst my daily routine of rush rush rush and battling the ugly voices in my head, I was caught off guard for a second today.  I had asked my 9 year old to "Hurry up and get your socks and shoes on".....(so that I can get to McD's and get my COFFEE!!!!!).... and she returned to me like this:



To add to the humor of this, you must realize that it snowed here last night.  However...I literally stopped and laughed out loud at this.  It halted my rapid pace, and made me laugh.

Sometimes being a mom is unexpectedly awesome.  :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

The Beauties and The Beast...

A nice day at the park.  What could be better? The kids and mom, exploring the usually untraveled parts of the park.  We had a great time, even if it was chilly and windy and the ground was sometimes soggy.

It got me out of the house, and the kids got some fresh air.

It was such a nice time, that I decided to take a picture of us all.  So, I took a few.  And looked at them.

And as usual when I see myself in a photo, I became upset, mad, sad, disgusted, and the good ol' happy feeling left immediately.

I can't explain why, but I have a very deep disgust about myself.  I'm working on changing that, but it is what it is.....  I'm not looking for sympathy, or words to tell me how great I am.  I'm just getting it out there, that I can not see myself anything other than disgusting looking.

So, here is what could have been an awesome picture of me and four of my children.  Maybe in a year, I can redo it....and be grateful that I am alive and well....pretty or not.





Friday, February 3, 2012

What Did Not Kill Me Made Me Stronger...

My Mantra.
And Don't ask me what I mean by that.