Saturday, February 11, 2012

Just Laugh Already...

Amidst my daily routine of rush rush rush and battling the ugly voices in my head, I was caught off guard for a second today.  I had asked my 9 year old to "Hurry up and get your socks and shoes on".....(so that I can get to McD's and get my COFFEE!!!!!).... and she returned to me like this:



To add to the humor of this, you must realize that it snowed here last night.  However...I literally stopped and laughed out loud at this.  It halted my rapid pace, and made me laugh.

Sometimes being a mom is unexpectedly awesome.  :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

The Beauties and The Beast...

A nice day at the park.  What could be better? The kids and mom, exploring the usually untraveled parts of the park.  We had a great time, even if it was chilly and windy and the ground was sometimes soggy.

It got me out of the house, and the kids got some fresh air.

It was such a nice time, that I decided to take a picture of us all.  So, I took a few.  And looked at them.

And as usual when I see myself in a photo, I became upset, mad, sad, disgusted, and the good ol' happy feeling left immediately.

I can't explain why, but I have a very deep disgust about myself.  I'm working on changing that, but it is what it is.....  I'm not looking for sympathy, or words to tell me how great I am.  I'm just getting it out there, that I can not see myself anything other than disgusting looking.

So, here is what could have been an awesome picture of me and four of my children.  Maybe in a year, I can redo it....and be grateful that I am alive and well....pretty or not.





Friday, February 3, 2012

What Did Not Kill Me Made Me Stronger...

My Mantra.
And Don't ask me what I mean by that.




Monday, January 30, 2012

Who am I? Let me tell you...

I am a child of God. 
I am a human.
I am a mother.
I am a wife.
I am a daughter, sister, cousin and aunt.
I am blessed.
I am damaged.
I am healing.
I am hurting.
I am loved.
I am hated.

But above all...I am a child of God.  I am all things because of Him.  Sometimes I have to remind myself that I belong to Him.  My life really is not my own.  There is a reason for everything that has happened to me, and because of me.  There is a reason for all things.  ALL things.

So, when I look in the mirror and see everything I don't want to be....remind me who I am. 
When I can't receive your love, afraid I'll never be enough...remind me who I am. 
In the lonliness places...when i can't remember what grace is...
Remind me who I am.

HE loves me. That will have to be enough.








Sunday, January 29, 2012

What is Important?


These are my top 5 things....


Friday, January 27, 2012

Car Insurance...Got it?

So....my husband was involved in a car accident yesterday.

Not a horrific one.  Not even one that totaled his car.  He was driving down Kingshighway, when somebody thinking they had super fast powers, tried to dash across Holly Hills...but then realized when my husband smashed into him, that he indeed did not have super powers.  Idiot.

My husband does not drive a new car.  Not even a newER car.  His car is 18 years old.  We can't afford two car payments, and his car runs...so why would we get another one? However, my husband has a second job as a pizza delivery driver.  The tips he makes doing that allows us to send our kids to a catholic school, which is a priority in our lives.

The crash caused him to lose the right front side the car, which involves the headlight.

You need a headlight, or else you get pulled over by the PoPo and get a ticket.  He was pulled over already last night just bringing Julianne home from school.  How is he supposed to deliver pizzas at night...with no headlight?

And now what do we do?  The guy says he has insurance...but this can not be verified.

Nothing pisses me off more than people who drive around without car insurance.  HOW DARE YOU??  Why do you think it is OK to do that?  You can't afford it?  Well boo hoo...I can't afford a lot of things either, but I don't put other peoples livelihoods at steak just so I can have them.

If you can't afford car insurance, do not drive.  Period.  I don't care about your circumstances.  It's the law.

And it is only fair.



Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Sometimes the things we can not change
End up changing us.



And that is the damn truth.