I remember when "Valentines Day" was something magical..magical in the same sort of way that a birthday is to a little one. When I was young, I remember being filled with anticipation to see what special thing Mom would have for us when we got home from school. Usually it was a sweet treat, like a cupcake with hearts...or something like that. Whatever it was, it was special, and exciting, and something that only happened on that special day.
When I got older, and Jeff and I were dating, the excitement was still there, only different. I remember putting together this whole plan with a few other friends where we rented a limo, and did not tell the men, and then took them to a fancy restaurant for dinner. How romantic, right? I remember the "in love" aspect being magnified on Valentines Day.
Well, many years have passed, and life has changed...and it has been many, many years where I felt any excitement about Valentines Day. No extra love, no cards, no candy.... and not just from my husband, but from me as well. Blame it on being too busy, too poor or too lazy, it is what it is. This is how it went today....Jeff said, "You didn't get me anything for valentines day, did you?" me...."No." Jeff, "Good."
It's sad, isn't it. Not sad that we didn't get each other things, but sad that we have set our love for each other on the back burner. We have work, kids, school, tuition, bills....all that takes a lot of dealing with... and on my part, worrying about. I still love him. He (hopefully) still loves me. But we have lost something...and need to find it again.
5 comments:
Sigh.. I understand. And I miss those vtine days of the past too. :( At least H made me a vtine today complete w/original poem.
keeping you in my prayers!! :)
I'm sorry your day wasn't what you would have liked. :( I think it's easy to lose yourselves once you have kids. Might not be right, but you're definitely not alone in doing it.
I'm not a V-day fan myself - the highlight was making cards and boxes with the girls the week before. :)
I <3 you. ;)
Happy Late V-Day. I hope you have a good one next year!
I have so been there! I finally started making more of an effort and then in turn, my Jeff made more of an effort too. It doesn't take much, it's just always nice to be acknowledged whether it be with a card or a kiss on the cheek.
I do hope things get better for you. <3 you.
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