Monday, June 9, 2008

It's me....

I've been realizing day by day....it is ME that I don't like, not the entire world. It's me. I don't like me. I don't like what I have become. I don't like how I handle things. I don't like how I have no organization. I don't like how I avoid everything. I don't like feeling guilty. I don't like having my laundry all piled up. I don't like having all my piles of crap mail (ie, bills and other stuff I am avoiding) all over the place. I don't like not knowing where anything is. I don't like how all I ever do on my bullitan boards is whine and cry about how terrible my stupid life is. I don't like that my husband and I don't have a relationship anymore. I don't like how fat I am. I don't like anything. about me.

5 comments:

Heather said...

:( love you peppi.

Heather said...

Big (hugs)

And very sadly, I can completely relate.

Jenn said...

Peppi, I can totally relate! But there are tons of people who love you just exactly the way you are! Don't shut yourself out...let us support you!!

Heather said...

OK, I tagged you for a meme. However, I then felt paranoid (which you can relate to right?). One of the things that drives me crazy is complainers, but I don't want you to read that and then think I was talking about you! I am so not talking about you. kay?
xoxo

Oh here it is if you want to play:

http://www.naultfamily5.com/2008/06/new-meme-and-just-in-time-since-i-felt.html

Issa said...

Peppi, been absent a bit. Last time I read your blog, I think you had paused for a bit. Just wanted to say, I could have written this post. Laundry is everywhere here. I don't know what bills I am owing. I can't find anything, I don't even look anymore, unless it is my camera I am missing.
I love you Peppi. I have not forgotten you. You are in my heart.